series of emotion

in past few days i don't know what way my emotions were running!a series of thought ranquiet amazing and scary!!!!!life has shown few wierd stuff......feel likenothing goin as promised as before...?1->consience still lingers down my sooulcannot think of happiness my heart gotta holeburdened by burdens,halted by my respectcannot find around whose the suspectwith all eagles eye,fallin in for demisecouldn't recognize.it was u not my soul!------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------2->tonight i feel lonely,cold wind blowssunshine has lost it's happiness,only night,is what now swallows,what wrong did i do?the only question that haunts me!with a candle i walk in storm of my heartlight vanishing ,all dark....like a zombie i walk with no breathe,no reason to live.------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------3->i wonder why rain fallsand clouds so dark.heated up all soulsamidst of sorrow in the sunquenching away i guessthe raindrop fallsflooded my heart,plenty saddness it broughtemotions hiding down the lanethey turned up with the flowpouring out of my eyesfeelings lying down below--------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------4->my heart in pain, all effort's in vain , what should i do? where do i go? am all alone... no one to see... to stand beside me.. am alone..all alone everyday ,what's happening? in my sadness um drowning. why i have to cry? cuz in my heart sad emotion's , they lie,lie............------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------5-> "so hard to help,life's a wealth burdened by love,dark all alone! to feed hungry,toil a day! pilling up saddness,a dismay"this thought cam when i saw a person who was eroding his life for others to exist and be happy....-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------

life i saw,i experienced

i say, life is a mystery,an enigma!

after all years we sought

and emotionless batlles we fought.

still seeking an answer to our never ending need

would it be material,love,imense faith

all a worthless piece ,without contentment

i know i started with 'i'

gravity,is what i can never defy!

but still i stay

life is a mystery,an enigma!

cuz i can never know tommorow!!

caving out all the distances

loving splitted hymen

without contentment

i love her,i wont leave her

but still i don't know whats 2mrw

but still i say

life is a mystery,an enigma!

cuz i can never know tommorow!!

snail started waving me a goodbye!

she never reached her destiny

an i reached ,why?

god wasn't fair ,he wasn't nice

but still i was happy

cuz cup was mine.

victory was, i sought,

she enjoyed her life,dats life she sought

who's the winner,who's the loser

but still i say

life is a mystery,an enigma!

cuz i can never know tommorow!!

------------[elrussa]rushikesh

when heart is confused...

[this is a feeling that i happen to experience of my friend---when you want everyone to be happy,when you dont wanna hurt your love,your frnds,and everyone you care...but end of day nothing is going the way you want] for my friend manyu!




do you know where you heading?
do you know where you are hiding?
or is it fear then a blessing?
for a feeling 'better to have something"
do you know ,whom you love?
do you think you are lost in it?
you felt it so strong,but
nothing's turned out how you wanted.


god ,bless my frnd's soul
his hanging soul,
cause he can't help it,and
give him a place to rest , 'fears' in it!



Do you know what your fate is?
And are you trying to shake it?
You're doing your best
and Your best look
You're praying that you make it
but end of day, 'he deserves best' i know it!


god ,bless my frnd's soul
his hanging soul,
cause he can't help it,and
give him a place to rest his fears!

FOR MY DEAR FRIEND.......[WHN HEARTS BROKEN]

Your heart is cold and lost the will to love
Like broken arrows
don't be so low on urself,
cuz happiness lies in tommorrows.
afraid of sea,but life itself a sail
now tell me what to fear,and what not to..
love so beautiful an enigma,a blossom..
blossom in winter has to fall........
fall is what u have seen..
lost the one to whom closer u have been.
fish will die if he envies water..
enjoy life as if everyday is last supper!
love never dies,if betrayal has conquered
it will rise, numerous consequences it may have sufferd.
for u dear freind i will always care,
i'll face each and every of your nightmares.
--------[FOR U DEAR FRIEND......]

world has many secrets dipped int the depth of oceans.and at a point you could find yourself lost.and be a part of the depththen a secret!u'll be awaiting to be unravelled.for some just a 'thing'.for some just a 'secret/discovery'for some life's meaning ,an "enigma"......
[so everyone be optimistic....]

life's gone

Flown off the ground my head's up in the air
it's getting harder everynight,to take the punches left and right
dreams shattered off!and still singing melody
no meaning,just whinning about life


drowning into storm of blame
life's into pieces and flame.
wing's all broken.sunny spring calling me
!till end ,walk on and on
..springs over,life's gone!


oh ho ho life's gone!
calls from frnds unheard
sights of love unwatched
beauty is what all scratched

..springs over,life's gone!

oh ho ho life's gone!

SEEKER OF WRONG!![STORY BEGINS]

STORY BEGINS WID SOME VERSES,SINGING IN AGONY!
consience still lingers down my sooul
cannot think of happiness my heart gotta hole
burdened by burdens,halted by my respect
cannot find around whose the suspect
with all eagles eye,fallin in for demise
couldn't recognize.it was u ,not my soul!
..........MY LIFE [CHAPTER-END OF MY LIFE]
it was very insane of me to leave you behind so disappointed.now i know how much i was wrong in choosing the things!as the day passess and i clearly see wings of the death,haunting me!stilll i am not afraid of dying.now i feel the cold of lonliness,every time the breeze passes i find it asking me something tht i could not tell anyone...yes!it's true,my self-inner consience also doesn't know .wht was i trying to prove or gain.but i miss those whom i met in my journey .now -i feel for her,i want him to ask me,love me!i want to be with my mom.when i had chances i never had these choices!and now that i have no chances i have choices.has my life played a game against me?or is it my inability to seek the truth?only waves of question haunt me,drown me.it has been quiet an irony that every question that i have had atrue answer in my past,which i denied to live,....and now that i am dying ...my questions also have doubts..and i am living a 2 min walk to death.iam permanent in my mistakes!.............TO BE CONTINUED

DARKEN NIGHT

-my sorrow

darken night alone i standwish someone would lay a hand.tored and broken, here i standsomeone would lay a handmy heart,single raft,in the oceanflooded with fast emotion's.help me god through all this!give me what i really miss.what i miss...........!is it at this time far too late?to save me from my fate!i'm codemned and i have to wait.i really want the freedom..which is not bound and restricted.i tried so hard to give it upi find myself that i 'm addicted..with the fake smiles and stupid liesi find myself that i'm bleedingi'm bleeding!

LIFE'S BEEN TUTOR

life 's been a tutor.
thoughts killed it on.
had second thoughts
and i was all down!
i was lonely alone
as if all things were done!
and it passes by ..
with winds saying goodbye.

it's my life dat i've lived
it's my possesion and i never dreamt.
it's my way i gotta go
i am not here to show.
no no not freakin show.


here i start again......


i 've always got a second chance
and failed a chord,new romance.
life ain't perfect,no melodia
being ridden .. is only words.

tonight i feel lonely,cold wind blowssunshine has lost it's happiness,only night,is what now swallows,
and it passes by ..
with winds saying goodbye.

it's my life dat i've lived
it's my possesion and i never dreamt.
it's my way i gotta go
i am not here to show.
no no not freakin show.
-----------------------------------BY RUSHIKESH [ELRUSSA]

my life...and the other things

my life's beautiful.!
.......well that's exclaimation made...!but the overview "if" anyone takes is indeed true.certainly if anyone needs anything can have from me..that's what i 've always been.but no one asks me what i want?after having so many good friends,i still feel the vacancy inside me.i am not complaining about any of my friend.but even i need a good friend to tell me ,cry ,laugh,share wid me...most of my frnds actually share almost everything wid me.but i need someone who starts first,who is like me....
....see i even cannot write what i want to convey.....
but i wrote a poem about me,
...SOME HARD EMOTIONS.......!


step out of the home,and laugh.
life,a happiness and saddness,a part half.
life a raft ,a sail in ocean,
driven by various phases of current.
sometimes find ourselves lost.
in search of ground.
the happiness and contentment we lay down.
man a volcano inside,
favourable ready to burst outside.
magma of words swallowing everything,
happiness,relations all burnt up....
stepping and stamping goes up.
resonance a victory may seem...
left all alone in an icy cream.
a step both sides valley seems..
"EVERY FALLEN RISES AND RISEN FALLS",REALLY MEANS!